To go Green you have to have Green!

11 days including today and counting...Final exams are coming up and I suppose I have to start thinking about them. The nice thing about college though is that in between semesters, I have a 5 week break! How sweet is that?
In the middle of all of this, I am watching people signing up for courses to be "on track" for their degree. This is depressing me. I still don't know what to do with my life! What I have noticed (after my mother pointed it out to me) is that this state of mind is almost genetic. I listen to so many people in my family talk about what they have always wanted to do; how they started to go to college for this, if this hadn't happened I would have done this. I know that they would be so much happier if they had actually gone through with the things that they wanted to. To take an art class, to be an opera singer, to teach english overseas, to travel. Now what are they doing? Being not happy.
On the other hand, there are also people in my family doing just what they wanted to do, and all I hear from them is that there are no jobs and there is no money. Then again, is not like those people who did not do what they want are making a lot of money either. I don't know which is worst, honestly. I guess right now, that is what I have to decide. Choosing between two lesser evils.
I just cannot see how having a job with little pay would make me happy at all. I need money to build my dream house in Ireland with my underground library (that I would imagine to look something like Belle's in Beauty and the Beast). Without money, I would not be able to build a nice barn with wooden fencing for my horses that would eliminate all my horse problems....
 I'm not trying to be so materialistic. It would just be nice not to have to worry about my horses and to have a house of my own, with books of my own. Contentment is what I seek. I think that is what we all want...I just think I know exactly how I can accomplish this.
Thought for the day: Find ways to be content RIGHT NOW.

So, it's been awhile

Has anyone seen Leap Year? Well, I decided that I want to move to Ireland...I also found out just how hard it will be to bring my animals...except for horses, which I think is kind of funny. There are many services to ship/fly horses overseas, but dogs and cats are extremely difficult to get into a foreign country. You either have to get them microchipped and lots of blood work done, or be isolated for 6 months!! I find this a bit ridiculous. I found out that I will have to first bring them to England, then to Ireland...oh well, more work, and more money :( . Oh well, we will lay on that hammock when we come to it, i guess.
I am still not sure what I can do with my life. I signed up for 3 english classes, so maybe that is a start. All I really want to do is spend time writing my books, poetry, and working with my animals. Those are hobbies that wealthy people are allowed to have, and unfortunately I cannot count myself among them. I have to work for a living...
Thought for the day: where do you really want to be? Even if you think it is just a dream, make plans to go there!!

The end of fairy tales

You tell yourself that you don't need or want anyone because you can do well enough on your own. Then you read your fairy tales and think about all of those happy endings...and it dawns on you. Those people are not alone, enjoying their happy ending all by themselves. They will never lack someone to talk to, where I am stuck talking to a page and writing about everyone else's utter joy.
That is where those fairy tales get me. In reality, men are not like that; you are lucky if they ever take an interest in you, let alone stay with you. So how can I among anyone expect the man that only lives in fairy tales? This may be the end for me...before I even began, simply because what I want is not possible.
The problem is that right now, I am wasting my life writing about the fairy tale I will never live yet again. Is that not what I do every day? I write stories. Stories about how my life will never turn out, about where I will never live, people who I will never meet. So I spend the rest of the time looking over my shoulder, along street corners, at the tinted windows of a passing car, in hopes that they are looking for me too. They are not.
Thought for the day: think about something else.

A good book...a good life.

Some food for thought (quite literally) : what makes a good book? Well, as I am somewhat of a professional on this subject :P let us please discuss and i mean DISCUSS!! comments are more than welcome in any/all of my blogs, but especially this one. I find comments welcome and helpful, especially to my own writing.
Anyway...do you know how many books have ever been written? I certainly don't, but I imagine that out of all of those, there are bound to be quite a few so called: "unoriginal" points. There are only so many ways to meet a person, there are only so many ways to fall in love, there is only one idea of the original vampire/werewolf, and I imagine that those people who try to make up new versions of mythological creatures are trying to be original....but it doesn't work. sorry.
The reason that they are called 'mythological' is that their origin resides in actual historical events. You cannot make up historical events. Nor can you make up a creature and try to call it the same thing as another creature. It is okay to make a sub-species, but you cannot expand on what a creature is with your own idea.
You know where I am going with this, don't you? The Twilight "saga". Brahm Stoker is the father of this creature. You cannot make Dracula sparkle, Stephanie, you just CAN'T. In the very first book, she told her audience directly that her "vampires" do not sleep in coffins, are not burned by the sun, they're enemies are wolves, etc. Therefore, they are NOT vampires. And for those of you who do not know, Brahm Stoker's vampires control wolves.
So how does one make a great, original book? Well for one thing, you do NOT rewrite a book that you have read because you do not like the ending...I mean, you can, you just cannot publish it. If you want to create new creatures, you may, just give them a new name. I love it when authors employ ancient mythological creatures though, and I am sure that you can find one that matches your criteria because there are simply so many already made.
Thought for the day: Look up mythological creatures and read about one that you know little about. you will also learn your history by doing so!

the American workforce...is a JOKE

All the subjects that I am interested in seem to have no potential job opportunities. I used to know exactly what I wanted to do too, that is what frustrates me. If there was an apprenticeship system where a person has to know what they want to do by the time they are in 8th grade or so, and go into an apprenticeship, it would be ideal and it would be easier to get into a field early on and we would have better services with better educated professionals in their field. People in America are simply not professionals because they do not have a system like this. What the hell is with this whole "well-rounded" idea? Professionals are just that: professionals in their field. If you are good at everything, you are great at NOTHING! It is not just starting children early, it is instilling in them the want to do what makes them happy and balances out the needs of the community.
This way of thinking was employed everywhere many years ago. It kept businesses alive that are no longer in existence, to our detriment. We have no communities, we have only work ethic; no family, or community values. Apprenticeships drive home our need for other people, and personal learning interactions.
This society has doomed me with the promise that I can do "whatever I want to do and take all the time I need". Because, apparently, we live forever and have all the time in the world to live without a job and money. Living with our parents for the rest of our lives or just working in a fast food joint that is fattening up our citizens and contributing to the "bum factor" is not the way to live any dream; however, this appears to be the "American Dream". This is no way to live and help our economy. Move out of the country, learn how to live.
Thought for the day: what can you do to thwart the "American Dream"?