Flashback

Freeze.
An image from, only two years ago. She's laughing, thin (well, thinner than me), and she's just about as pretty as someone like her can get. I envy her.
I envy me. I don't remember being particularly happy that year. I honestly don't remember much about it, just that it was a very different day than today. I almost wished I had not seen those pictures. How did I get like this, if I had once been like that. Yes, life changes, but I shouldn't make myself change with life. Right? There should be a foundation, a stability point that I should be able to circle around. I just don't have that kind of determination....
which is sad, i suppose. I can't blame others when they go with the tide, I just would hope better of myself. See?
Not that I wish I were someone else; that's not it at all. I'm just searching for the better me. The problem is that I found her in the past...not the future. I'm sensing major changes.
On the better side of news today: I am having a poem published :) it's not too huge of a deal, but it's my first! So, needless to say, I'm psyched!
Thought for the day: In what period of time is your best self? If they are in the past, maybe it's time to touch base with them in the future...